Friend

Theres a lot of people in this world ,
and some of them is our friends .
friend is one of the important things in this world .
where we can trust each other . and build a good friendship .
but not all of them can be trusted .
theres always  a betrayal among friend .
back stab , harassing and so on .
and theres always broken promises .
with all this matter ,friends'' no more sacret things .
now friend is just a like people where we talk with 5 mnt ago .
its not that the best people got no place in people mind,
so they call that people ''bestfriend :)
but it is just  a game .
bestfriend is like a game to me .
where i need to take care of people hearts .
and i care and talk for them to raise points .
and for me , bestfriend is like rebuiltg the friend things
cuz theres no such a really good frndship .
it is so hard to find when you make a clique from
people that dont match your attitude
im tired of friend things .
but im kinda lonely without friend .
well , no one survive alone isnt it :P

I cant hold this for too long .

 Tgok la jam skrg pukul brape and what day is today ? I havent sleep yet . 

I cant sleep , Shes Going out but tak balik2 . This evening I had a fight with her . 

mula-2 mmg aku sakit hati dan tak mahu pandang dia lgsung , but i cant live 

without her even a minute so aku pujuk tp dia tak layan , dia tepis aku , dia ckp2 kasar dgn aku

dia buat aku mcm kucing kurap . but it is not fault actually , its just a misunderstanding 

tp dia layan aku mcm aku salah 100% , aku pujuk sbb tknk gaduh dgn dia tp dia layan aku mcm tu

kan nk buat mcm mna . aku dah biasa kne mcm ni takesa pun , dia mmg ckp je lebih , ckp percaya

aku tapi hampeh . ckp syg aku tp nth la . :'( dia suka sakit kan hati aku , suka salah kan aku 

suka marah aku seolah-olah aku ni tade hati n perasaan . mmg aku pernah tipu dia sekali . 

tp tu sume dulu n aku rasa tak perlu nk bawak2 bnde tu smpai skrg .. cemburu punye pasal kne 

lukakan hati aku mcm ni , dia tak nmpk ke aku sakit ? harini kali ke 2 aku kecewa dgn dia .

harini aku kne minyak panas tp dia buat dunno aku sakit , tak tnye tak pandang tak heran aku menggelupur . aku ckp la pergi mati lah , aku tak sengaja ckp mcm tu , aku tgh sakit patu dia buat mcm tu aku marah . sorry syg .. aku sedih , sedih sgt kau layan aku mcm ni .. kau kata tknk buat aku nangis tp knp stiap kali mcm nk sakit kan aku je , nk buat aku je . aku tak kuat hal2 cinton2 ni :'(

sudah2 lah buat hati org luka syg , org dah tak larat ni ,. org tau org sakit kan hati syg

gila babi haritu tp org rasa sakit org ni lg parah dari syg . org ndk kuat mcm syg ..

jgn la balas mcm ni , jgn la main kan org pulak .. :'(

org penat menangis syg . penat sgt syg ... dgr tak org ckp ni ? jgn la buat org nangis lg :'(

jgn janji sbb syg tak reti ikat janji kuat2 :'(

aku suka nangis , aku mengada , aku lemah , dan kau tau itu tp knp nk dera aku ?

esok aku skola , comfirm aku buta sbb aku tak tido lg . aku nk dg :'(

have anyone seen her ? aku tknk tido kalau tkde dg . syg mana bah ko ni ?

phone off so i cant reach her .. mana syg  !!! manaa !! blk la syg :'(

org ndk mau tido ndada syg !!!!!!!! blk laaaaaa cpt !!! :'(

I wish you could read this Lang :'(

kalau nk dipikirkan blk buat ke sejuta kalinye,

mmg aku yg salah dlm hal ni . 

aku yg tak reti nk hargai dia . 

aku yg tak reti nk bersyukur dgn apa yg aku ada.

mmg cinta perlu kan pengorbanan,

dia dah buat pengorbanan da pon 

tp knp aku tak boleh nk buat utk dia ?

apa lagi yg aku nk sebenarnye ? 

mmg aku tak tipu,dia yg terbaik yg pernah aku ada.

kalau aku demam panas,dia boleh tak tidur jaga aku .

kalau aku tak demam pun dia tggu aku tido dulu,

 baru dia nk tido ke apa .

aku tak rasa ada org lain yg boleh bt mcm tu,

even family aku pun tade amik kesah sgt kalau aku demam.

aku ckp aku takut gelap,dia belikan lampu tido untuk aku .

tp aku buat hal mse tu,aku buat dia meroyan time tu :(

 dia rela bagi aku bantal tido" kesayangan dia yang

terpaling syg kt aku,even tak la rela sgt :p

dia bgi aku fon smpai dua kau,skurang-kurangnye

tkde la aku pakai fon buruk lagi :')

aku igt lg,dia beli aku coklat.even coklat tu tak

mahal tp aku mkn slow2 sbb takut abis n tiap kali aku 

makan , aku mesti igt dia ..

dia suka buat surprise,suka dtg mgejut la,

buat la bnde yg aku sakit jantung . hehe

dia bgi aku bunny comel sgt,aku lekat bear tu dkt

whiteboard aku,kalau aku rndu dia aku peluk bunny tu la:(

mcm2 la dia buat,dia bgi kat aku, smpai setiap bucu

dlm rumah ni sume ada je kenangan dgn dia . hm

dia pentingkan aku dari diri dia sendiri .

apa je yg dia ada,dia buat,dia mesti dahulu kan aku .

tp knp aku tak sedar2 .knp perlu ada org yg kne sedarkan aku?

knp aku penting kan diri sendiri?

sorry syg  :'(

skrg dah tak guna aku nk bebel byk2 dkt blog ni . 

dah tak guna aku nk menangis seribu tahun pun,

dah tak guna aku nk menangis tiap kali aku igt dia.

sbb aku da buat dia benci kt aku .

aku dah buat org yg paling aku cinta sedunia benci aku.

dan aku tau dia takan baca atau igt sume bnde ni .

sayang , if you could hear me ,

feel the pain in me .. balik pls syg ...

I am so sorry ! i promise you for the last time 

in my whole life . that i will ever ever never hurt you

again...

mahal mo ako :'(

Untitle

As my life flashes before my eyes

I'm wondering will i ever see another sunrise?

So many won't get the chance to say goodbye,

but its too late to think of the value of my life.

You can see my heart beating ,

you can see it trough my chest

said ' im terrified , but im not leaving 

i know that i must pass this test .

so just pull the trigger .

Surrender T-T

  why this is happening to me mann !

have i done anything wrong to anyone else too?

or my life is written to be like this ?

2012 was not meant to be like this 

as jerk as other year ..and even worse .

I still don't feel the presence of NEW year..

even though 2012 is already on my feet .

why god take everybody that I love away from me,one by one ..

Is there even a peace of memry bout me in their mind ?

theres a thousand million ppl out there but why me ?!

Isn't there a peace of love for me out there? :'(

Im not strong ! not strong enough to win this game .

i dont even ask to participate this game !

God ! I need your strength ..

save me T-T

Tears Dont Fall By Dee - 6.7.2011

the tears that fall from my eyes
will never stop fallin 
until you come and wipe it 


i miss you . say i need you
a day without you is a nightmare 
a day without you takes my happiness away
a day without you destroy my day .
cause with your smile i start the day

baby i need you
please stay , please always stay .
you're the one i hold onto 
and my heart would stop without you
i love you more than i did before .
nothing change no one can take your place . 
it gets hard everyday .


half of my breath gone the time when you walk away
with my eyes lookin at the sky
and my hand full of blood 
i fall to the ground .
leavin evrythin behind
cause nothing else matter 
when you no longer beside me 

Secrets By Dee - 12.6.2011

This secret you kept ,
burn me inside,
this secret you kept
is the answer of all my question all this time,


you're so far away rite now
and you're going more far soon
far away from me .


a long life to go,
a thousand years sailing,
with no destination .


this love we breath is endless,
but the path that you're going to choose soon,
is going to tear us apart


and im gonna drawn
drawning in a deep sea


baby make decision now
or im soon gonna die drawning
theres no other way to escape
from the life u've draw :)